Tonight I put both boys in the bath tub together...that is something that I have been looking forward to since I found out that Cooper was on his way!! It was precious to see my two precious boys "playing" together and having such a fun time TOGETHER!! I LOVED having a sister close in age. We had many moments of fighting like cats and dogs...or sisters, but all the squabbles are a distant memory to me these days. I talk to Emily almost daily...sometimes more than once if I'm lucky! I often call her even if I don't have anything exciting to talk about, I just call to chat...to see how she's doing. I feel extremely close to her and so blessed to have her in my life. Now, if only I could convince CJ to look for a Wesley job in the N. GA area, it would be perfect!!! I hope that Maddox and Cooper will grow up to be close and to love and value each other. To look at them today, I feel like they will...Maddox loves to entertain Cooper and Cooper is always up for a good laugh! I told Jim recently that I pictured them in 20 years hosting a party...Maddox was the one in the center of the crowd saying, "Hey, watch this!" and Cooper was laughing and having a good time and making sure that all the guests were happy. They seem to be so different already but a perfect match!! These two little guys are so special to me in a way that I cannot even describe with words. I love them so deeply and so fiercely that it hurts. I had this overwhelming fear when I was pregnant with Cooper that I would not be able to love him as much as I loved Maddox. I mean, let's face it, Maddox is pretty awesome and Cooper had a lot to live up to!! My heart surprised me though, I had been told that my love would not divide, but grow...and oh my goodnes, it definitely did!! I cannot believe I wasted so much time stressing and worrying about such a silly thing...but I think for me it was a "gotta see it to believe it" event for me. So, as I think of my little roly poly Cooper squealing and splashing in his tub seat and Maddox showing him all the tub toys and telling me, "Mommy, Cooper is so happy!" I can go to bed with a smile on my face and love in my heart. Sweet dreams, my precious boys...Mommy loves you very much!!! Cooper, I'm sure we'll meet again before the sun comes up!!